I don’t feel horribly crushed or anything. Just sort of a low whine I guess. I feel slightly empowered by my decision to quit drinking but still a deep abiding feeling like my life kind of already played out and there’s nothing new in store for me. My fate feels written in stone and it is extremely disappointing. I don’t know how to move on from my previous expectations in life. The whole world seems to radiate anger and disappointment at me. It’s snowing.