It’s been tremendously hard to write here. \u00a0All of the guilt and pain and anxiety of what happened with Spiritkid and its ripple effect on my relationship with Corgi and other people is kind of crippling. \u00a0The Telephone party is tonight and it’s hard to look forward to it. \u00a0Corgi went to a party with me the other day and I connected with and kissed someone in the other room. \u00a0She saw me go off and knew I was going to kiss that girl. \u00a0It really disturbed her and we didn’t get to a good place last night. \u00a0My birthday party is coming up and just everything is a source of dread. \u00a0We have 8 days to complete a major project at work and it’s horrible to face. \u00a0I feel so out of control with everything and so groundless after the (pretty much) end of the telephone work. \u00a0I thought I would feel good now but I just feel horrible. \u00a0I don’t know if I should just end my relationship with Corgi or not. \u00a0It feels like some kind of last chance at sanity but it also feels like this constant source of pain and stress.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
It’s been tremendously hard to write here. \u00a0All of the guilt and pain and anxiety of what happened with Spiritkid and its ripple effect on my relationship with Corgi and other people is kind of crippling. \u00a0The Telephone party is tonight and it’s hard to look forward to it. \u00a0Corgi went to a party with […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[2],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-103","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-daily-log"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/log.danieltalsky.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/103","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/log.danieltalsky.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/log.danieltalsky.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/log.danieltalsky.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/log.danieltalsky.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=103"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/log.danieltalsky.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/103\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":104,"href":"https:\/\/log.danieltalsky.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/103\/revisions\/104"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/log.danieltalsky.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=103"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/log.danieltalsky.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=103"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/log.danieltalsky.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=103"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}